Woke up feeling a bit empty, a bit disappointed.
I wanted to be honest about how I feel, to be straight forward,
but then, I don't want to be perceived as being paranoid or too dependent.
There might be reasons behind this irregularity.

Again, this boils down to the issue of managing expectation.
To let things flow naturally without directions,
it is much easier said then done.
To be spontaneous,
it is just not something that I can cope very well with.
I find comfort in pattern, I find comfort in predictions.
Hrpmh, this whole fuzzy hazy thing can be quite sexy,
but sometimes, it can really get quite tiring.
What do I actually want out of this?
Alas, good morning Tuesday.