Painting

People say I'll have a bright future.
I'd like to believe in that.
But right now,
all I've got is probably just
a good set of paint brushes and colours.
Haven't started painting,
no way I can tell if I'll be able to draw my dreams,
no way I can tell if I'll be able paint a bright future.

I'm nothing but fluff.
Its hard to be honest to yourself
when everyone else thinks that
you are actually trying hard.
And the ugly naked truth is:
I haven't been trying hard enough.

I am suppose to know myself best.
I am suppose to be honest to myself.
Now, can I even trust myself?