Things are still accelerating,
along that unplanned direction.
Its like gravity,
pulling me closer and closer towards you,
pulling me back to Earth
just when I'm suppose to lift off to Mars.
Its complicated, its rather alarming,
there's too much uncertainties and ambiguities,
but I guess at this stage,
I'm too much in love to care.

How ironic of me,
to even start dreaming of such unreachable.

Done with intern and I'm now back in Penang.
Accidently left part of me in kl.
Its gonna take awhile to recover.
Gah.

The only way to have a friend is to be one.

And that is what my fortune cookie says, a quote by Ralph Waldo Emerson.

I seriously wonder how I am doing in terms of making friends. I know I'm very selective and picky about my friends. My mum even said that I have the tendency to look down at people. True. I do think the whole friend thing is kinda overrated. But I do hope that I am a friend to those whom I truly consider as friend. Nothing pretentious, nothing complicated.

On a side note, its kinda amusing how habits and comfort develop. Sadly, I'll have to break out of this cycle and move on in two more days. Alas, reluctant, but I suppose that's life. I have been enjoying it and I am happy. That's all it matters.

Yawn. Good nite world.

To find comfort from someone, it is actually quite tiring.
To open up to someone, it actually makes you feel empty.
Hrmph. I feel vulnerable.
Like seriously.

The body adapts, but the mind resist.

I have been going to gym on a rather regular basis, something I think I wouldn't have done if you asked me a year ago. Started with some normal cardio/weight machine routine and then, I was slowly introduced to the awesomeness of group fitness classes, in particular, Body Pump and Easy Steps.

I used to think that Group Fitness Classes are mostly for those fugly women or stereotypical hunk wanna-be. In fact, I think of gym as some massive makeover factory that produces either gym bunnies or losers. Just like a production line that produces standardized "goods" or "rejects". But this view changed rapidly once I started my gym routine.

On top of sculpting the body and improving one's stamina, it is actually a very good training to discipline the mind. Yes, its this whole "mental training" thing that changes my view. Throughout these two months, I've experienced times when the mind just surprisingly gives you that extra bit of boost despite the resistance of the body. It allows you to move on a bit further, to achieve a bit more. This does not occur everyday of course. But the sense of achievement that follows, its overwhelming. It boost your confidence, it makes you believe in yourself more, it makes you realize that hurdle can be overcome by determination, it empowers you.

Through the group fitness classes, I've observed how management strategies are implemented. I've seen synergy being put into use. I've seen collective effort at work. It feels good. It does. Again, I can't stress enough on that sense of achievement.

I've come to understand that the body can always adapt to fatigue and harsh conditions. But to get the mind to do the same, that's the challenging bit. It needs a hell lot of concentration and determination. You need to know how to harness your motivation and strength from your surroundings. And that is why I go to gym, to prepare myself for the better.

It’s annoying when you develop the feeling of dependency.
It’s annoying when you are stranded by values and obligations.
It’s annoying when expenses exceed income.
It’s annoying when you have to go work when there’s no work.
It’s annoying when cravings cannot be satisfied immediately.
It’s annoying when you have to try to be nice to people.
It’s seriously fucking annoying when you don’t get enough sleep for a prolonged period.

Yes, I need some quality long-hours sleep. Zzzz. Hrmph.

The word hibernate sounds so right!
Beware. Highly irritable.

Wannabe

Just because okapi is hot,
we've got zenkey (hybrid of donkey and zebra) here,
a total wannabe!

Sketch it!

Haha. Finally!
My first proper sketch after such a long procrastination!
Hoorah for another ntd day in office.

Note:
Original Picture - Doric Temple, Segesta.

Picture of the day

Okapi.
They might look weird,
but they are SEXY!
Or perhaps HOT, to some extent!

They've got some chic zebra strip printed on the thighs,
a 30cm blue tongue (good at kissing),
and an oily, velvety coat of fur.

Absolutely sexeh!

Gah! I do not remember posting up the last post at all!
I think I freaking embarrassed myself last night.
Note to self: Try not to do that again. It was reckless.

Little things make me happy,
but little things make me sad too.
Hrmph.
Thanks.

We should be responsible for our own actions and thoughts,
simply because we are suppose to live for our own self,
before trying to live for others.
Others do not have the obligation to live your life for you.

Sorry, but I can't fathom this.
Are you putting the blame on me just because you are weak?
Are you putting the blame on me just because you can't move on?
Blood ties, to be serious, they don't really mean much.
Cold hearted, maybe. But that is after all the reflection of reality.